Sunday, October 05, 2008


Well, I think this it the last picture taken of the the kids in warm-weather attire. It turned chilly soon after, and I have to say, I love it. I actually get to wear long sleeves without over-heating. I love the crispness of the air and the chilliness of night time. Fall activities are in full swing and we are gearing up for Halloween. (Although I've somehow misplaced the chili pepper bunting and orange pumpkin hat, along with other important baby clothes, and I'm quite distressed.) We have plans for the apple orchard next weekend, which should be a lot of fun.

Isaac has his Special Education Evaluation on Oct. 14th, to see if he does have sensory problems. I've mixed feelings about the evaluation. My hopes are that we can help Isaac be the best he can be. My fears are that it's all my fault. Is this normal? To fear that I am completely responsible for his temper tantrums, unusual behavior, and failure to follow directions without a fight? The truth is it's been a very difficult month for me with Isaac, although not for anyone else that Isaac interacts with. That said, it's hard for me to believe that I'm not to blame, although I cannot for the life of me figure out how to change it. I wish it was as easy as being more strict, but that actually makes it worse. If I back off, that means that I'm doing everything for him, which isn't good either. I'm hoping this evaluation can shed some light on the issue for me.

1 comment:

Undercover Mutha said...

Oh, such beautiful, beautiful kiddos. I love fall weather, too, and I'm looking forward to many campfire cookouts.

I think it's natural to blame yourself, but unless you completely ignored him (which I'm sure you didn't), then it's not you fault. I mean, you created a blog for him to declare your love to the world for goodness sake! You're a great mommy, and sometimes kiddos just need a little assistance. You're doing something about it, and a lot of parents don't care enough to do the same.